天外有天，天外的天外，有我

2010-08-05T19:21:00.001+08:00

Every New Semester:

After First Week:

After Second Week:

Before the Mid-Term Test:

During the Mid-Term Test:

After the Mid-Term Test:

Before the Final Exams:

Once Get to Know the Final Exam Schedule:

7 Days Before the Final Exam:

6 Days Before the Final Exam:

5 Days Before the Final Exam:

4 Days Before the Final Exam:

3 Days Before the Final Exam:

2 Days Before the Final Exam:

1 Day Before the Final Exam:

The Night Before the Final Exam:

1 Hour Before the Final Exam:

During the Final Exam:

Once Walk Out From the Examination Hall:

After the Final Exam, During the Holiday:

The last dance.

2010-06-21T19:54:00.003+08:00

This is the last time I'm gonna post here . I'm gonna leave everything here , in this blog will be my memories for the past 3 years. The good times.The bad times. Every small things that I blogged about in the past 3 years. I'm gonna keep it here.

Starting afresh. It's like a story, when it reach the end. There is always a new chapter unfold. Here. 8 pm marks it all.... As for new blog... I will tell those who I think they're worth knowing it.

2010-06-18T21:10:00.002+08:00

Back here. Same place. thinking now. It's been here for 3 years. It's a miracle I didn't deleted my blog. Alot of things are rushing into my mind... I don't know where to start... I have been thinking alot... Really alot. I've been studying. but not the subjects in school. Yet I wasted time in japanese folk lore and myths. Japan.... A place where ghost and spirits and totally different in other parts of the world.

Shouldn't say much into details. Tomorrow.... Is gonna be the same? This holiday I've been spending my best friend. My laptop. I never leave his side even once this holiday ...... Sigh..... You have put emotions and your needs behind.... You have move on.... I and still standing here, looking at the past. Wishing for things to be the same. Yet. Life is cruel. They won't let things go your way. I'm alone. Always. I guess this is the way it will always be. No one knows my pain. Will.... maybe if s/he is me for a day... I always wait for things to happen. Instead of making it happen. I'm just lazy. My future is pure darkness. I can never get nothing good out of that....

2010-06-16T18:35:00.003+08:00

I guess.... I am too free? Today should be cycling but clive is busy. So canceled. Sigh... This holiday is wasted without you. Everyday is empty? 12 hours on laptop. Trying to be as happy as I can be . Though it's meaningless. First 2 weeks is wasted in school. This week is coming to it's end soon. Next week is exam. My life is in pieces. I'm so weak. After getting my ring. I don't punch and my knuckle got soft... I want to be stronger. Everything I said . I don't even know myself anymore.... Ahh.....FML.

Annual camp is kinda ok... ? My activity plan so good still... Nobody can finish it. Not enough time... Sigh. The only fun part is only the campfire. I guess... The 4 days... Has been fattening. Everyday western food. x.x and a sushi buffet coming up :/ Getting fat already X.X

2010-06-12T20:08:00.000+08:00

2010-05-31T22:40:00.002+08:00

When the feeling really fucked you up... What will you do? I decided to truth on myself... but why do things like this still happen? Some may call me weak and stuff, call me what you want. I don't care.

The feeling is gripping me like a fly in a spiders web, threatening me... Every single movement is energy draining.... If I can just.... Grow up. Mature more. Maybe that's when miracles can happen.

Lies..

2010-05-29T16:40:00.004+08:00

Knowing the truth yet denying everything... Even thought it's futile... even though it's fxcking useless... I lie to myself to make the world seem a little brighter even for a second longer...

It all I ever wanted... I don't need money or stuff...It's just someone whom i can be with. But I guess the simpliest things are live hardest thing to find... FML . I wish i could just fade away...

I give you my heart...
Mind, body and soul,
I give you my love ...
For you make me whole.
I give you this promise....
The promise to try,
I give you each breath..
And the tears I cry.
I give you my past...
My future and now,
I give you my thoughts...
My hope and this vow.
To give you my voice,...
And the music I sing,
I give you forever,...
I give you this ring.
I give you my world,...
All the pain and strife,
I give you my hand..
Learn to share my life.
I give you this kiss...
And these words I say,
"I'll cherish you always..
As of this day."
I give you my faith...
That these words are true,
For today, I swear,....
To spend my life with you.

2010-05-28T21:20:00.002+08:00

Songs that describe my feelings? The weather fits in too... The room is dark. Breathing gets harder. The weather turning colder. I miss all the times we had together.... I will wait...Till the end of time I will wait. Till the day when my heart stop beating. When my voice can no longer call out for your name. I will fade away, back to oblivion.

2010-05-26T15:46:00.003+08:00

I 've been too selfish for far too long.... Sigh.... I never regret a single bit.

I'm too weak...

2010-05-22T15:05:00.002+08:00

I just realise , jared, after reading pages of http://love.givesmehope.com . I feel so useless....Literally... Sigh...Alot of things happen.... But I dunnoe what to do... I just things to be the way it is right now and never changing.

2010-05-18T20:40:00.002+08:00

Through alot of things. Been through alot of sufferings. Got back my results. Shocking?Surprised? but I knew 1 thing. I did what I could. I tried my best. i studied for it. I get what I get. But like the way I was taught. I must be hungry, hungry for more. yet know the clear line between hunger and greed. I wanna be more knowledgeable.I want more and more. Yet ... My actions don't prove it. My life had been too comfortable... I have been too slack. I hope....I seriously hope I could get the laziness off me. I will make a point that AFTER June holiday. I won't be me anymore. I will leave a scar on myself. A scar that make me to know what is right and wrong.

I guess this is a self reflection post... I guess I have nothing more to post....

God Bless,
YK

2010-05-13T21:35:00.002+08:00

Yesterday night dream was so crazy. I dream about my becoming mix school. Changed our uniform. New school. Jm,Ryan, JY and Marcus all got a girl friend. So many new teachers. Speaking of it, I was the only remaining single. Lots of things happen, marcus leg wasn't injured at all. Everyone was laughing. Without any worry ....

How I wish I we can have no worries.....Sigh.... The music played on.... I'm getting exhuasted.... My body feel like lead....So heavy..... I can't move.....

2010-05-10T20:12:00.002+08:00

Wow...my blog is so dead already.I'm here to do some tidying. After this post gonna study chem :D My subject to score. Study till I get distinction ;) Playing maple private server this 2 days. Reborn a number of time , well at least something to keep my mind occupied.

Joy just gave me this link to listen to. Meaningful , yet emo-ish. Hmm...Life has been a roller coaster ride. I've been the peak of it and to the depths. Everything is so different. People changed , things changed and even the school which contained my 5 years memories goes away with upgrading of the school...I can't believe it. A simple song, contains SO MUCH memories in it, make me lose my balance. Slowly but surely , sorrow fills my heart. Gotta stay focus...As soon I finish with this post , hafta bath then study for chem. Focus. gotta stay focus....

Moon

2010-04-30T07:13:00.000+08:00

The moon is so round~ full now. Signify the end of a month. Time passed so fast, so suddenly next week is already mid year. Hahah... First time posting in school. Staring at the scenery which pass so ever slow. The moon is slowly fading away but it's still there.

Time . A thing created by human, became so humanly known. Everyone uses it, but..... Time has been never been on our side. It has watch millions of people come and go. A lonely existence? We will never know.

Yesterday napha , didn't get the results I wanted...... Sad. I shall train more.now entire body aching. Miserable.

Friends. Back to this topic once again. But meeting people who teaches you value of life. I've met people this year who changed my attitude in studying. I'm working hard. I will continue to work hard, till my body gives up.

You're the princess , i'm your servant.

Servant of darkness .

2010-04-25T01:03:00.002+08:00

Well... Back to blogging. After a fever with massive headache yesterday.In school, it was all ok till chem. When everything worsen till the point of headache till I cannot endure, so cold till sun felt like aircon. But still bursting with energy. Sigh...... Now at cousin house , 1 am is still early to turn in. I'm already beat. My headache is coming back....

Back to the topic i wanted to talked about today. I finally found my resolve. My resolve to score well for MYE then prelims then my EOY which is N. My MUST GET is at least N level chem top student. Chem is my only good subject, scored in what i do best? My math is now my worst subject but I'm studying for it. circles formula and stuff... I memorised it. :d But now headache ...lazy think of it. FML. Ok ok I should get some rest. Night. (;

400th post.

2010-04-18T15:41:00.003+08:00

Hey...........................................................................................................................................................................
ok. Yesterday went for LK BBQ. Pit problems :\ Shall not say much.

"Virtue- You don't need a reason to help people."

"Despair- To be forgotten is worse than death."

"Dilemma- Having sword fealty, must I spend my life in servitude?"

"Sorrow- How do you prove that you exist...? Maybe we don't exist..."

"Devotion- Someday I will be the best, but I will always be myself."

"Solitude- I don't wanna be alone anymore..."

"Indulgence- I do what I want, you have a problem!?"

I'm getting melancholy. Wow....I guess it ain't a bad thing.

I guess shall crap about this word called 'Love'. Love...What is it? During a relationship they always talk about love. Do they actually love their partners? Even if it's one sided relationship. Is it still love? Questions... And answers.... So...Why is there always a question but there's no answers? But I don't really care.

Memories rearranged. I need to get my motivation back. Studying is stressing me out. School was never this stress, I hate myself for being too relaxed....Being depressed ain't gonna work. FML , I wish someone will just beat the senses back into me. Now then I realise one of my brothers got dumped. And that girl's a bitch. Trust me , you will just wanna slap her face. Getting into new school JUST 2 days and fell for another guy. Not that it's my problem but it's just unbearable standing one side and watch.

Love..... Is it a need? Or a must? Only those who lived through can tell the tale.

Leaving you with a song. Hopes it's nice to you like it's to me.

FML

2010-04-15T20:22:00.002+08:00

OFFICIALLY SPRAINED MY LEFT LEG.

If memory serves me well , this is the second time :\ It's pain , but bearable :\ Sigh...First , lost my phone. Second this. Can life get better? FML.

Life is just a game I play. I am gonna win or lose this game?

My howl didn't reach you.
I'm left alone here , in this cruel world.....
Alone

Deja vu

2010-04-14T22:18:00.004+08:00

I'm asking you a question. A simple question , " Do you know me? " . Things has been happening so fast, so much things has pass... Studying , games and even time to rest has been so limited.... I wanted to rest.... Who knew N level will be so much stress....Take it slow and steady? I have to study , make up for the 3 years of studies.

About the question earlier, do you know me? I can roughly sum up to you all. No one knows me. I am who I am, I want to be myself. I can only be myself. Only myself can be me. A psychological effect on a human brain, can cause a very huge impact on a persons life. I wanna move on , but stucked in this place. I guess everyone know what deja vu means. A very nostalgic feeling ..... Thinking back . Memories that I've been trying to abandon is coming back to huant me. Fear , I hate it so much. Death , is just an graduation. You will know what it means when you experience incedents that causes your life . If luck has run down on me long ago I have been dead. I stared into the eyes of the grim reaper. He should had been taken me along with him 3 years back. Yet didn't.

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/print/280076/1/.html

It's almost like a joke. He didn't bring me along with him but a little girl in the evening. I almost drown....Thinking back , my life this stress years ago. It was free , not so constrain. I wanted Freedom like most people do. The freedom to do this , to do that. I want do this and want to do that. blah blah blah. FML. Mental breakdown....

Prologue
When the war of the beasts brings about the world's end
The goddess descends from the sky
Wings of light and dark spread afar
She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting

Act I
Infinite in mystery is the gift of the goddess
We seek it thus, and take it to the sky
Ripples form on the water's surface
The wandering soul knows no rest

Act II
There is no hate, only joy
For you are beloved by the goddess
Hero of the dawn, Healer of worlds
Dreams of the morrow hath the shattered soul
Pride is lost
Wings stripped away, the end is nigh

Act III
My friend, do you fly away now?
To a world that abhors you and I?
All that awaits you is a somber morrow
No matter where the winds may blow
My friend, your desire
Is the bringer of life, the gift of the goddess
Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return

Act IV
My friend, the fates are cruel
There are no dreams, no honour remains
The arrow has left the bow of the goddess
My soul, corrupted by vengeance
Hath endured torment, to find the end of the journey
In my own salvation
And your eternal slumber
Legend shall speak
Of sacrifice at world's end
The wind sails over the water's surface
Quietly, but surely

Act V
Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return
To become the dew that quenches the land
To spare the sands, the seas, the skies
I offer thee this silent sacrifice

If you know the story . It's very sad. Genesis , Loveless. A great story. A sad ending.

I shall continue with the topic. Do you know me? A guy who is probably comes up with something lame or retarded on anything and everything. That's just part of me. No one knows me , no one will. I can't show anyone my face... It's hidden with a mask . I can masked my emotion so well. I can go along with stuff I dont like yet you dont know . I can be a demon, when you mess with me when I am in a bad mood. I have to control myself very well...... Fighting... This fist of my , is developing. It's gonna mature someday. Someday , I'm gonna protect poeple with this hands of mine.My heart is wavering. It's beating. And someday soon... It's gonna stop.

Leaving you with this song.

As I shout , I can feel my tears rolling down.
Can you hear me?

2010-04-09T22:27:00.002+08:00

Today is kinda ok ? Well , paid alot of attention in chem and physics.
Alkane and alkene. >_< carbon carbon single bond and carbon carbon double bond. Cheem much. Had a talked from vp? learned ....nothing? Math was doing circles.... Lost.... I need Q helps already :X Uh..... Scouts , Alot of stuff happen. lazy to post... I feel like sleeping early.... I used up my energy very fast everyday. ><

2010-04-07T22:01:00.002+08:00

BACK by popular demand? okok, I have been busy this few days. trying to manage time through forums , games and studies. damn busy x.x

Forums - Sorry to Kaelon , sixes and xblazerz. I've been busy ;\ Too busy.

Games - Playing garena with marcus, jarret , wei jie , sherwin and sil. Always end up using 2 - 3 hours of the night.

Studies - Meeting more with Q , thank you so much for spending time to coach me on math. :)

Ok, Marcus is back in school. Helping him as much as I can . Firstly , he's handicap. secondly , my brother . More then enough reason to help him :) Busy busy busy . I need rest. I go bath then sleep liao. :) Chao outside :D

2010-03-31T17:47:00.002+08:00

Long since I'm back here , complaining of life like a Bitch. Yes , I can also curse in here cause i can and the fact that i dont care anymore. Thinking about life, like Mr Goh said. Too comfortable. I have been doing things that does not improve myself.

Firstly , Welcome back. dem0nkn1ght. This time when you went away it's surprisingly long. Yet you're back , how are you gonna stay? I can't stop you from staying or leaving can I? Studies , 1 month more to prelims. shorter then one month. I still cant study properly. Motivation, such bullshit. I never had any motivation to begin with. The things that drive me moving along this cold road is my friends and brothers . But slowly before I even realise it, friends. How much are there left? Slowly one by one they crept out. Well, I don't really care anyway.

Motivational talks. How ridiculous when they're talking about jokes and expect to learn jokes? This 18 hours I would rather stay in class and try to study. I can even learn something. I wanna study... But I never get the chance or never have the motivation to start studying myself. Friends? Some of you are really trying to piss me off. Keep taking my phone to play, like battery free one. Then return me when battery is red. -.- I only have 2 words to you. " FUCK YOU ! " . Emotions are piling up inside. Things that can't be said here will remain unsaid. I guess that's all for today. Chao outside.

2010-03-24T22:45:00.002+08:00

This song is nice. The lyrics is awesome, every thing is wonderful. So meaningful, I should probably learn from this song. Make use of time, time was never on my side. (; looking for songs, making me feel a little bit better making me lift the weight in my heart. Even if it's a little bit, I'm glad. Tomorrow got firedrill? Lazy to even bring myself up for a proper fire drill.Well, I'm glad. At least things are calm now, too calm. It's the point of calm-ness till it's scary. So scary that you will tremble in fear, arms unable to move, legs rooted to the ground.

That kind of fear that bind your heart. Fear is just another weakness, pass this fear and move on. I want power.... I don't want to be my old self anymore.

What's the difference between a King and his horse? I don't mean kiddy shit like 'One's a person and one's an animal' or 'One has two legs and one has four'. If their form, ability, and power were exactly the same, why is it that one becomes the King and controls the battle, while the other becomes the horse and carries the King?! There's only one answer; INSTINCT!

To brush up on instinct? Behave like a beast? How do I train my so called 'instinct' ? Only time can tell... Only the beast will know the beast.

2010-03-22T20:36:00.003+08:00

I'm not in the right mind set now. Games and stuff still occupy most of my day. Can't I get a grip? Get a grip, I can't afford to lose everything I have now. I have a screw up mind set. The vision I use to see has been smash by reality, I can't afford the luxury of wasting time. A race against time, if I'm taking things slowly , I will get screwed up very badly.

Time is a crucial thing, it can only move in one direction. Take Marcus for example, if we can force time to reverse, going against the very foundation of all living things. We can make a change, a chance that will alter the things we believe, change our attitude. Learn to be more mature and stuff. Sadly we can't do that, if not the world will be a very different place. Every country will be flooded with people, there is no place to contain all humans as people will reverse time the very second before they die. Heard sil and Marcus convo while using his com, if we could turn back the time. He will not kick the window? We will stop him from kicking the window? Who knows? The Grim Reaper . He , who control who has to die. You have no chance of running forever. I always thought that there's another dimension. Where humans live in time far away from now. Maybe there could send us some kind of hint they exist there.

Time.... The Most Cruel Thing On Earth. Before Long..... Everything Will Return To Oblivion.

My howl.

2010-03-21T22:56:00.000+08:00

I think that time is gonna continue moving after midnight today. The time for me to get into my study mode, Marcus won't be in school , due to injuries, for 2 weeks..... A case of possession? I don't know. I wasn't there. Maybe if I'm there I may see the shadow that almost took my soul 3 years back. A feel so useless, a small girl soul was taken instead of mine. Haiz.....

The time that stopped. Dimension altered , everything in it changed, even though I have new friends you will still be my first priority . Haiz..... Is this what I wanted ? I highly doubt so. I want my fangs back, the fang that makes me want to protect . Protect my weak feeble soul and my friends and not forgetting my loves one. The desire to protect will make me stronger , I want to be strong. I will fight to protect.

仮面の名前. I will know the name ,learn it and use it.

2010-03-19T20:42:00.003+08:00

Today is fun,and tiring. Went for combine meeting, SUCCESS!!! (: Congratulations to all sec 4 who put in their effort ^^ Well....I heard some 'info' from fellow scouts. Shall not say things here. PnC :D

Start off with the day, when school so early, then meet with sean. Then went to 7-11 buy plain water. End up never use much,wasted . High-ing at the last part of meeting ;\ mentos after effect.So high, started doing sakura stance (refer to marvel superhero vs street fighter ) . Took group photos, etc. Then ...... rain. Walk in the rain. etc.

After all this thing, I'm missing you~ Next friday ^^ We shall play to our heart content ^^

2010-03-17T22:11:00.002+08:00

Wow... Time flies ~ It's been 2 years since I started blogging. It's been so long, so so long. Thinking back, I wasn't the same as now. Looking at the things now, I'm much more happier. Even if I'm injured, bleeding... A smile is what it takes to make me remember . Remember the memories, memories of everything.

" Howl ,is a conversation between friends...I'm a lone wolf , it has nothing to do with me. " Quoted from Zero.

Remember that I am calling out. ハウル、私の魂 ,it's calling out for you.

2010-03-16T21:34:00.002+08:00

Usagi - kun

() /)
( . . )
c(")(")

Kawaii ne~

Currently now sweating, nothing to do, wondering around the forum trying to kill some post. :P Audi this few day alot of losers.... Those who play with me know my pros and cons, yet those losers insist that I'm hacking... -.-

Wasted 3 hours making my own theme :D on my iphone, couldn't find any nice background and stuff, cannot use 2 wallpaper =.= worst....ok, muscle still aching. I shall go rest liao. Tomorrow can get Z2 liao . Excited :DD

Howl, my soul cries.
Wake up , my buried passion.
Apologize, my past mistakes.
I'm shouting till my voice is gone, I am calling out, calling out to whoever out there. Do you hear me?

ハウル、私の魂をあなたのために呼び出します。

2010-03-15T19:01:00.003+08:00

Very happy now :D Got chosen in Zenonia 2 CBT. 8D Damn tired now..... Morning meet up with jun yang and Jia ming , then cycled to school. Then math remedial , then cycled back to avenue 8, fix bike etc. Then from there went all the way to punggol end, rain on the way there. Stop for a while, then on our road there. There's ups and down, fall down alot of times. Felt giving up and go home , but still went all the way till punggol end. Played skipping stone >< skipped 7-8 times . BEAT THAT ! Slack awhile then cycle back with jun yang. Cycled back, damn tired. Resting now, checked forum . THEN THE EMAIL CAME.

I am chosen for CBT :DD damn happy now . I can fly >< shall go and rest ore >< cya~ till next time ^.-

2010-03-12T19:36:00.004+08:00

Tired .... morning mass workout, sprint the entire round . Tired like hell..... Lesson, i learn something ^^ math is....forget liao >< then recess...Prawn mee is so spicy O: then after school .... went to pepper lunch with ryan. then slack, went his house. played some lame lame game. well...he played. I watched :D Then just had my facial. Hurts like hell, heck with it. ok, nothing to update liao. i shall end with a song.

2010-03-08T17:32:00.002+08:00

Currently very happy :D Just finish a phone call that cheered me up ^^ I am also glad that one idea of mine made 2 teachers headache :DDD D&T is awesome when i mess with teachers :D

P.e went to com lab and did something about fad diet. Did so long, then cannot save nothing. Cannot send also :\ Have to do again. Must remind SOMEONE to remind me to do . >< okok , shall go bath now :D till next post. ^^

2010-03-05T21:06:00.002+08:00

Suddenly everything turned so cold.......... Yet afternoon test is freaking hot.....Fail SS and geog already..... dont feel like attending this 2 lesson anymore.......haiz.....

Digimon the whole day. Obsess with it..... dont feel like blogging....Damn depressed....

2010-03-04T21:43:00.002+08:00

TODAY celebrates SOMEONE birthday ^^ my budget went down by freaking alot.... so bought a small present only... ): sowwi..... Spend the entire afternoon with SOMEONE ^^ from TPY to AMK TO thomson then back to hougang. (: Memories being made, carved into my mind. (:

2010-03-03T19:38:00.001+08:00

TOMORROW IS GOING TO BE EPIC ^^ I AM SO LOOKING FORWARD TO IT :DDDD

Planning for a very long time :D I shall try to calm myself down >< VERY HIGH NOW. ^^

2010-03-02T21:06:00.002+08:00

So long never update blog liao. okok... I didn't get into Z2 CBT. sad ): Envy those who got into it. either way, made friend with a guy from the forum, so called my senior in the forum. He got into the cbt ): Envy even more....

Haiz...March already. Still so moodless about studies. I wanna be more stable... Still wondering aimlessly. Wasting time like there's alot of time left for me. I really getting involve into chats of the forum. Trying to be a good contributor , yet on the other hand , struggle with studies. I'm helping my senior in gamevil forum making a guide of Z2 . My english.... have to brush up already. Have to wait for Z2 to release officially.

School work....BORING. Failed my math test like a common thing in life. Chem ace like hell. Yet careless mistakes.... 29/33 . Too low for me....... I wanted 1 2 mark lesser then full mark. Pushing myself to the limit.

2 more days :D

konichiwa~

2010-03-01T19:06:00.002+08:00

watashi wa ninja desu(:
geegeeegeegee babybabybaby.
trying to piss him off. haha okok.
erm.. have maths test tomorrow. gotta study hard!!!
as for me.. i have physics test tomorrow, ss test on wednesday, maths on thursday.
tomorrow have art): damn shitt.. but art is fun. :D yay!
A TROUBLED YANKEE AW YEAHYEAHYEAH.
okays. byex peeps

signing off,
charmaine xoxo

2010-02-25T20:26:00.004+08:00

Lan with marcus , jovan, ryan,sil and daniel. L4d 2 till i almost vomitted.....haiz...school....crap. Chem test...Wasted one mark.

Current Mood : )':

I am so tired.... feels like giving up....Giving up on life...

2010-02-24T20:44:00.000+08:00

OK.... Today bought prepaid card ^^ then now, watching dr panassus imaginary thingy. lazy to post >< if you wanna post then post ^^ I shall the go next blog and see

2010-02-23T21:50:00.002+08:00

OK, bloggin again. I CAN OFFICIALLY SAY I WASTED 2 HOURS OF MY LIFE. in a talk, about.....I wasn't paying attention >< So nvm . Listening and chatting with sil and marcus. Not to forget Jovan arh, that guy arh.

After that, wah...kia su. Take 2 cup fill with fruit punch. drink 4 cup. Then freaking run one big round. back to front gate. Sweat out my 4 cups. Marcus and sil taxi driver sia. ok, bicycle driver. Sil is incharge of me, then marcus take jia ming. freaking joker , ps arh sil. I the overweight. Then Jog. Till traffic light. wah....the bowen sec slope, freaking happy. Damn steep then go down damn windy~ damn fast also.

okok,cycle till near Jm house I go 7 11 buy slurpee . Wah, cold drink is so refreshing. one cup still thirsty -.- too much sugar... come home bath. then use com liao.

Countdown : 8/9 days ^^

2010-02-23T17:26:00.003+08:00

Sorry arh, yesterday forgot to post >< Preparing to go school now.... Stupid fxcked up school....PARENT TEACHER MEETING,student need to be there for fxck? haiz....stomach full of anger .... Freaking potato. okok, preparing go school liao. post tomorrow or something. sorry...

2010-02-21T20:57:00.002+08:00

mwahaha...Today went to hospital :3 Nothing big to say =x but then still feeling a bit dizzy arh. okok, I dunnoe what to say. hair cut fail,freaking look like bangs now. haiz.... you stil say cute-.- bangs where got cute. So fugly. ok nothing to post about. cya.

Countdown: 11/12 days

2010-02-20T17:27:00.003+08:00

Shall start ranting now :3 Even though fever I'm still kinda active. 38.6 currently. >< Got a bizarre dream yesterday night.... Very crazy.... yet the ending was a good ending. Uncle and auntie talking IR and stuff. Maybe going tonight . I wanna go universal studio .... =\ Going alone sucks. ok ok, I'm bored ...... I shall drink a cup of water then sleep liao. (:

Countdown: 12/13 Days. ^^

2010-02-19T16:44:00.002+08:00

School was boring.... Did foot drill that I learned in sec 1. Lame.... Wasted 30 mins. Cannot concentrate during lesson...Probably due to the wine last night and thinking of stuff.....

Sine rule... not wrong is a/ sin A = b/sin B = c/sin C . Something like this arh. Recess.... Bored enough. Then health check, thought about injection and stuff. Then only eye check.... Then SS. Copied notes then release liao. Slacked with marcus waiting for densil to come. Talked about lame jokes, break into house and stuff. Then densil come I go buy drink. Kanna caught, one to one talk with dnt teacher....=.= Lame till max. Complaining when no one likes him. =.= damn sian one. Then meet with marcus and densil, then brandon also ask me whether i tio also. He also got the same talk with him....Walking back home,with densil and marcus saw wei jie.

walk with him to hougang,on the way. densil was playing with a Caucasian, HE GOT OWNED! A random cyclist just stop at traffic light, he wave and say hello, lone time no see. Then the and mor reply HI,where have you been ? Kanna OWN!Then they went to eat chocolate. I went home and bring my bike for marcus. Then go pump air talk more crap. Then go home liao.

COUNT DOWN: 13/14 days ^^

2010-02-18T18:47:00.002+08:00

Up to this point...There's no point turning back. I will continue this road. Not giving up. Never will. I will get what I yearn for so long. I will reach the finishing point.

The Boy Took A Step Into Oblivion, Within Oblivion He Found Bliss.

I will endure,endure everything till the point my body cannot take it anymore. It breaks down, but I will still continue. Till I get what I want . (: I got depressed looking through pictures... " Pictures of you, pictures of me . Hung upon the wall for the world to see. " I think, I'm gonna start a new blog. Everything will going to be recorded inside. 自分の考え、私の気持ち will be recorded into it.

Trying Hard to stay sane. Without Ken everything is so hard to understand... learning more to be more cheerful. (:

Cheers.
Signing off.

I wish things be like before.

2010-02-17T21:29:00.000+08:00

Haiz.... Being alone makes me think. Think about how weak and pathetic I am. Hanging on the thread, which is going to snap any second.

Thinking about things.... After cny.... Everything changed.... I don't like this change.... I rather be in a state one week ago... I rather don't celebrate cny. I just want things back to normal... I pray and wish,I am willing to pay the price to just go back in time..... Just wished..... What I can do now is to keep praying.... Pray that things would be back to normal.......I pray.....

2010-02-17T18:08:00.002+08:00

I guess I'll use this song to describe my feeling now.

Got back geog paper...... Haiz...... Don't feel like blogging .......

2010-02-16T20:27:00.002+08:00

Time pass so fast.... It's a tuesday, cny already over. Lots of things happen.... This year cny is really depressing..... Don't wanna post things here. Mixed feelings , I am damn tired of some stupid things my ****ing brother always do just to piss me off........ Endure and endure,bottling things inside of me.

Firstly to LK, ps seriously tomorrow i cannot pon school. Each lesson is getting more and more important. plus, my parent don't allow friends to come over for cny.

Damn tired.....I wish my 'poker luck' is still good till this year over. Lazy to post....Haven't bath yet.... gonna stop here. till next time.

sadness fills my heart.

2010-02-16T00:22:00.000+08:00

Now at cousin house.... Played poker with actual casino chips, extreme luck with no money-.- cny , don't wanna say... Don't feel like celebrating ..... Say till here bah.... Nights....

2010-02-13T16:29:00.002+08:00

Update for sake of updating. Wake up last night at 2 am to sms , damn happy one. Epic conversation today :) ok .

here's the translated lyrics.

Love you girl only you are my heaven
sing it together
Lalala..
big bang
Lalala…
Hey T, let’s do it bro
Go go go..

It’s the truth if I say you are my eternal lover
everything in the past is like never let go
never knew that love could come and go just like that yo
waiting for you day and night in my dreams and go
summer flow in the night, take flight and glow
that’s forever love

That “you would be with me tomorrow”, it’s gone
Even though we had great times together, why have you gone (**it’s actually “our making love is great” but I’m reluctant to type the words T_T**)
Love has always failed to grab my hands
Only you somehow are a little different
I always felt this was fate
From now on (It’s literately “future” but I think “from now on” would fit better with the next sentence)
you’re the only one in my life

I want to see you, I want to see you
I’m waiting for you by that sea
My feelings for you
Whether it’s the morning, the afternoon, or the evening
I want to see you, you are my heaven

happiness…sadness…tears…

sky…stars…and my heaven

Only you are missing
But the world is so colorless
The depth of the damage is immeasurable
Those lips of that days are still warm
But even if I keep remembering them, I’m at loss of knowing what to do

Oh baby, memories of you are still in my heart
Oh baby, your messages still remain on my body
So that this unable-to-cool-down heat can be stopped
Oh baby, the cold rain is falling

Because of you

Please don’t vanish, don’t vanish
Please stop the time at that summer
I’m still holding those memories, whether it’s autumn, winter, or spring
For eternity, you are my heaven

Hey, hey, listen to me

Finally the message came
There’s only “I’m sorry”, I really don’t understand at all
Just one more time, come to my side, smiling like those times

I want to see you, I want to see you
I’m waiting for you by that sea
My feelings for you
Whether it’s the morning, the afternoon, or the evening
I want to see you, you are my heaven

24/7 My heaven

sigh......

2010-02-12T21:39:00.000+08:00

Today is so tired? Morning got freaking cny performance... Epic fail... P.H.A.I.L lesson as usually... Emo most of the time .. Physics got 18/28 happy? For a while is happy lah, emo caught with me faster then I thought. Lesson is so boring... Hardly absorb into my mind..

Very very sian.. SS is ok larh , but still cmi for sbq and seq . SS is fail Liao larh... HaiZ..... Meet with isaac and co. Then went back to mjs. Sir gave fortune cookie mine was something about reading to find solution. Read what? Clueless.

Went to compass point after that . Didn't get to meet yang Lao shi , went home so early... So went to eat burger king at compass . talked about Carls jr. Find time we go there eat , upsize everything :D went hunting for games and stuff. Went to see Teddy bear, buying a 18inch one for your birthday. Sorry for the shrink in size): found tamagotchi for 15 dollar>< next time go buy then play with Isaac:p

Don't wanna Continue lerh..... Haven't gotten your SMS.... Haiz... ):

Back to how it was :D

2010-02-11T18:22:00.000+08:00

Thank you for forgiving me (; I already talked to him to make sure he will never contact you ever.

I can never feel so glad when you forgive. Anyway, today was sleepy>< even for me when I slept all the way till 7 45 then wake up =x chemistry got 23/30 lower then I expected.... I feel like a failure... ALOT of careless mistake... If not 29 is not a prob....then after chem is English, boring close passage. Then Maths is trigonometry , easy>< recess was chatting with jun yang on ebuddy.

MFP is so freaking boring, I seriously cannot think of the point of holding a mfp period. Then is Chinese after that, 黄老师 cold joke is really very cold-.- singapore snowing. Literally felt a shiver down spine>< English again, allied with Ryan to do our passage A of the paper. I do odd number he do even number , then did our work and copied :P went to do a stupid survey then cannot even submit =.= lousy mac. Went home then com ... Bow very bored.....

2010-02-10T17:44:00.000+08:00

)': updating the other blog...

testing?

2010-02-09T17:10:00.000+08:00

Testing out on blogging using iPhone? Seriously.... Today is damn depressing.... Get the word depressing? Dunnoe then get a dictionary and brush up your English... Haiz.... 寂し得。。。あなたがいなくて寂しい気持ちになりました。。。恋しがる。。。 you never reply my SMS anymore... )':

2010-02-07T19:56:00.003+08:00

Updating again. Haiz...Today is so tiring.... Helped Cousin moved house... Move to their new house. From now on,week end can go their house stay ^^ So good.....now they have their own room... Haiz.... I miss you ~ ONLY YOU~~~~ HAiz....depressed....

2010-02-06T21:37:00.001+08:00

2010-02-06T18:42:00.002+08:00

I shall update, or later charmaine get angry ><

Ok...Today, wake up play iphone. :P then sms . Then JY call me go and meet him at coffee shop near school. Then , went there first, I reached faster then him... -.- Then took our breakfast, then saw miss ong walking to school. Miss Ong was like.....robot. Her walking speed was like....someone cycling. Me and JY cannot catch up.

Go school liao, went to wrong staff room. Then went to staff room 2. Waited for Miss ong. Remedial about Acid,Base and Salt. Wah...One holiday I forgot everything. Die liao...N and O how? ): After remedial went for scouts. Then very very the slack? But the punishment is still there . >< Later you know why ^^ Went for basketball. At first see them play,then I join in. Lose the match =x Went back and got a punishment of 40 counts of Buddha clap. After that Arm pain =x

Lazy to say things that happen after that.SUMMARIES. Went home and use com. Now reading charmaines old blog, :P

2010-02-05T20:16:00.002+08:00

TODAY IS THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE! Thanks to my special someone. ^_- Well, first half of the day is practically boring. School and stuff, massworkout -.- Skipped the running part. After that A3 started to pull each other pants, Then spongebob boxer, simpsom boxer all came out. Lessons..... Bored... Failed maths 9/20 . All careless mistake >< Physics,had our test.... Last question was unknown? Of all the people I ask (After the test ) All dunnoe how to do. English, wah..... very boring.... Mrs lee was lecturing about us, being unsatisfied with her and stuff, we can ask another teacher to take our class etc. SS , wah... At least it wasn't that bored.

After school went back home ,wore my contacts,almost went to the back of my eye. then chiong to mall to buy valentine present. VERY PATHETIC ONE... ): Then MRT-ed to TPY. Went to buy chicken rice, roast chicken rice. Then 7 up and sprite. Meet with her. Then eat our lunch. (: Then played around.

After that met up with JM , went arcade. Jubeat, then got one guy go tap then have to leave. Earn one free play. After that going home that time met charmaine,minjoot,evangel? and jayme at the mrt station.

Ok!TODAY I AM A HAPPY MAN. :)

Loves <3

2010-02-04T20:05:00.002+08:00

Haiz... This week is full of tests.... Maths,chinese,chem physics. Dieded....All fail.... Chemistry is kinda shocking...I lost 6 marks.... Fail liao.... haiz... dont wanna say more...

2010-01-31T21:52:00.002+08:00

Kat was tagged with this video, bored so went and open the vid. And then this music started playing. As the song was playing, I was looking through people blogs. Some people abandoned their blog,some still updating,struggling with life. Probably still taking this year too easily... Should change my mind set as soon as possible. Studying....Really must put effort into it,a MUST for me to get into sec 5.

Thinking back... Lots of things really change. People whom were so close , was gone like ashes in the wind. Strangers become friends,became best friends . And then finally became couple. I hope for us,things don't change. I will work hard,staying sane of myself. keeping what must be done,be done.

Teachers are telling us to study hard etc etc. Telling us there WILL at least a few people be crying when getting their GCE N / O level results. I don't wanna be the few in it. Working hard seems impossible. No one to push me on, my motivation is limited. My patient runs low, get bored too easily.... But ...Have to work hard... I shall not waste this year away like the pass 3 years in secondary school. Reminiscing ... secondary school pass away so fast. gotta stop whining and do some work.

P.S : RYAN, Piano collection of Yiruma is nice. Try listen to some of his/her music piece.

2010-01-31T19:50:00.002+08:00

Today is a tired day? Helped my uncle move stuff to his new house.... So freaking big. 3 storey terrace house.... Damn nice,well too much glass. Even in bath room the window.... After that , played ping pong ball , gold ball and marble while looking for the seed of carrom. Ok done blogging :P

dear...

2010-01-30T20:16:00.002+08:00

today went for SOY for awhile then went back home le...
stayed at home and do human stuff...
then webcam with someonee.. (:
okay. byexx (:

signing off,
charmaine

2010-01-29T21:06:00.002+08:00

Lazy to update blog this few days . It really surprised me when time really flies. Running around , playing. Playing pranks. A month just pass like that, this leave me only 7 month? I should have start studying... But my motivation was gone. Just like any other year.

Tomorrow is SOY. Then daron ask me for movie. Followed by jia ming asking me to l4d....=.= How am I gonna split into 3? So I'm going for soy. That event is in my calendar for a month already. waited for this day. Ok. Done updating.

ka boom!

2010-01-29T21:01:00.002+08:00

ka boom peeps! watcha up to now adays peeps? (:
felt so sick todayy.. im so hapy i got her to accompany me.., (:
lalala
okay, nothing to say liaoo.. byexx

signing off,
charmaine

hello(:

2010-01-27T19:00:00.002+08:00

hello peeps.
i'm going to be a happier person(: being sad brings no benifits to me so im going to cheer up and become a good and happy person.
i'm going to study hard and get good grades to get into a good school(:

rah rah rah ah ah rama rama ma ga ga o la la

no one is born smart or born happy.
you must study to get good grades.
you must find happiness to be happy.
none of these will be knocking on your door.
they are something you got to do something about it.
like how you will have to find a way to light up your life.
no one else will light it up for you.

Yuan lai by JJ Lin

街灯绊住我眼前下一步
拉长的影子嘲弄的回顾
电话亭仍留着你的话
一句话掉一滴泪
今晚的我会是如何入睡

原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪
原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语
我不懂得如何更爱你
影子讽刺地跟着我难分难离
原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你
原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己
你收的干净
我也会不留一点痕迹

说故事也要像是真的
可是别触动那些回忆
今夜你说了最后一句
一句话掉一滴泪
看来今晚的我很难入睡 Woo~

原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪
原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语
我不懂得如何更爱你
影子讽刺地跟着我难分难离
原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你
原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己
你收的干净
我也会不留一点痕迹 No Ho~

原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪
原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语
我不懂得如何更爱你
影子讽刺地跟我难分难离
原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你
原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己
你收的干净
我也会不留一点痕迹

signing out,
charmaine(:

2010-01-26T21:00:00.002+08:00

blogging once in a crystal moon? So near yet so far. I'm confuse by everything. Math, alternate days in mood to study. Most lesson is sleepy..... Got a iphone now. But not good till anywhere. Haiz....

You spin my head right round right round....

2010-01-21T20:20:00.002+08:00

Bored.....No mood to study this week. i guess my motivation has reached its end of the line. Argh...Cannot watch anime.... my

Omamori Himari
Dance In The Vampire Bund
Ladies vs Butler
Seikon no Qwaser

Argh....Curses and swears

2010-01-20T21:28:00.000+08:00

joker sia.... School is boring as usual...And harsh... =\ too tired.... sleep deprived...

2010-01-19T22:24:00.002+08:00

Wow.....headache now...=\ Just nice after the murder video. need to rest early. My contacts and stuff.... straining my eyes. That video ar......really pity that guy..... Haiz.....Nothing to say now.....After this song i'mma off the laptop liao (: Sleeping early for once.

2010-01-18T21:40:00.002+08:00

Ok....Blogging when I'm doing homework. Tired today? Did gymnastics. Injured my back bone..... -.- Lame ain't it. My head stand. IS CAN PASS ONE. 'PPHHHAAIL' <= Get the point? ok, caught the phua chu kang thingy from marcus. Line mah~

Ok back to homework ><

2010-01-17T21:00:00.002+08:00

Day by day, time pass so fast. Before we know it, its already the beginning of third week. NEW YEAR RESOLUTION, WORK ON FITNESS, CCA ATTENDANCE, DRAWING,ATTITUDE ON STUDYING. hmm....Need to buck up.

I'm tired.... so tired..... tomorrow got p.e , argh... body ache.....

2010-01-14T18:11:00.002+08:00

Tired to the max....sleep deprived. and stuff. So sian sia.... Suppose to have chinese test today. Sec 4 life is passing away too fast. The very same topic that i chat with sabrina last night and marcus and jiaming just now. Talking about sabrina . Happy birthday :D

Sherwin must be very jealous :P anyway.... School this year really has been passing very quickly, sec 4 2 weeks is gonna pass by. and It felt like it was only 2 hour. Saturday flag day. gonna use going to cca to miss it. I don't going around with a tin asking for donation. Its more of a 'advanced beggar'. This year , I can definitely say its gonna pass by so fast. Everything is finish when we reach september. After that september holiday starts our holiday till december get results.... N lvl...Not prepared,I'm still in the playful mood? Gotta study. Quoted from Mr Singh ' As student ,you all must study smart. Not study like one dog everyday.' Well,its something like this.

This year,it's gonna be a hard path to walk. I will always need you to be by my side. And I'm gonna wait. :D

To~ SOMEONE :D

2010-01-13T22:42:00.000+08:00

Dedicated to some people / person / him / her. :D

2010-01-12T21:49:00.001+08:00

This is the song i heard this morning while listening to 987. I like the lyrics. :D

This song goes to that special person , and those who visit my blog?

2010-01-11T20:06:00.002+08:00

I'm not giving up. Never will. I will stand by my promise and wait. Giving up is not my style. I will wait.

2010-01-10T15:55:00.002+08:00

I can't say how I feel....This picture....is good to describe...

2010-01-09T22:19:00.000+08:00

I shall let this video do the speaking.

Everything is related except that cheating part....I'm unsure.....haiz....

2010-01-09T19:33:00.002+08:00

Calm down a little. But now depressed..... After yesterday incident,which spread like wild fire,I seriously cannot let this thing slide... That guy punch my head now pain like siao.... Entire body ache from yesterday running and climbing walls etc. Haiz..... Depressed.....*cries*

2010-01-08T20:28:00.003+08:00

today is not a good day? Maybe its good,till the last part.Got whacked for nothing. fucked up right??? Ok too pissed off. Don't post.

2010-01-07T21:30:00.002+08:00

Why are you so special?? I was so depressed , the next second i saw you , everything thats bottled up in my heart vanish. You're so special to me. Erased my doubts, I will always believe you. :D Took 2 pics , These 3 words those 2 people know who i meant. I'm dedicating these post to her :D

Finally , once in 3 months i returned home . Finally home today, you know what i meant. I wanna go home now D: Hope we meet again soon . Study date i wanna go ><

Finally in a happy mood. Clear of doubts. Happy. Nostalgic feeling. I shall end here and go bath liao :D

2010-01-06T20:11:00.002+08:00

Jealousy is taking over me...... I cannot help but to feel hurt.... Studying. Maybe can help me take my mind off, Sometimes I wanna forget even who I am. maybe its a good thing, Maybe a change person. I decided to mark myself , everytime i feel jealous. Pain is the only way to remember myself. I wanna forget everything. Everything about me.

2010-01-06T18:20:00.002+08:00

Feeling terrible as usual..... Bought my books today.... Tomorrow onwards must carry books to school lerh.... haiz.... I hope you remember....If you just remember....

Chinese homework... Compo on third day of school..Should I drown myself with work? I can't finish it. Definitely. Yet know the lay out of the 'new' school. If you remember what you said. Probably I wont feel so bad. )': I will be there, tomorrow same place. I wait till it turns dark. 2010 , you're a bitch. I want things same as that time......)':

2010-01-05T16:06:00.002+08:00

Second day of school...... Ain't better. In fact it got worst. Aim for 19 points for N . I probably can't make it....

Eng ; c5
Math ; f9

With this 2 like this......N is impossible......haiz......fxcked up now....

2010-01-04T20:30:00.001+08:00

our last kiss
tasted like tobacco
a bitter and sad smell

tomorrow, at this time
where will you be?
who will you be thinking about?

you are always gonna be my love
even if I fall in love with someone once again
I'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song

the paused time is
about to start moving
there's many things that I don't want to forget about

tomorrow, at this time
I will probably be crying
I will probably be thinking about you

you will always be inside my heart
you will always have your own place
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
now and forever you are still the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song

you are always gonna be my love
even if I fall in love with someone once again
I'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song

'New' school,morning having problem with transport already.... Anyway get straight to the point. I Hate it :D The new school is pathetic.

2010-01-03T21:45:00.000+08:00

OMG....not prepared..... I wanna die....

2010-01-01T16:36:00.002+08:00

Happy new year? Please....Don't happy new year to me....not in the mood...... Never was in the mood..... My dearest psp was the one with me.... Today is first ...... I don't like today.... I wanna erase this date from the calendar...... Don't wanna say further....... Moodless.... Wow....Everyone is highing about new year and i'm the moodless one.... The best way to start a new year..... Being alone.

2009-12-31T20:48:00.003+08:00

Wow.....2009 pass in an eye. Before i know i know it , I've been through alot of things. Strive at impossible stuff, failed horribly,been in love . Attending Cosplay event. Michael Jackson death. Lots of stuff. Words....I can't find the words to express my feeling..... Lost in this .....void.

Currently....So bored.... Another year has pass..... I haven't achieve a single thing my heart yearns....I 'm still far from it... I'm still weak.... haiz....

Played sims 1 till headache.....moodless...... Anyway.... 3 hours to 2010.... Reluctant to move on.....How I wish time will stop.......

2009-12-30T21:19:00.001+08:00

"When do people die?
Is it when they get shot through the heart? No.
Is it when they get an incurable disease? No.
Is it when they drink the soup of a poisonous mushroom given to them by their best friend? Hell No!
People die... when they are forgotten."

Simply enough.... I'm forgotten.

2009-12-28T16:57:00.001+08:00

slept at 12 and woke up at 4 plus.. not tired...
okay, i don't know what to blog le :/
ermm.. okay then. till next time(:
bye(:

signing off,
charmaine(:

2009-12-26T19:45:00.002+08:00

Went eoy today? Don't feel like blogging........ Got 2 yui makino autograph. Wanted her to sign another but cannot =\ Still.....My heart is in a unstable mode now....haiz....till next time

sup peeps(:

2009-12-25T20:43:00.002+08:00

merry christmas everyone(:
how have your holiday been? mine have been fine.. who wants presents? :D hahaha:D
okay hmmmm....
there's nothing much to blog about.. life is kinda of boring but you don't wait for happiness to go knocking on your door, you look for you own happiness cause may be while looking, you'll find true happiness(:
OKAYY!! got to go le.

signing off,
charmaine:D

2009-12-23T20:20:00.001+08:00

One of many in this wide universe
In the great world of this blue earth
This tiny feeling of love will reach
You on the little island
Time have passed since I first met you
The letters with my feelings grow in numbers
Without us realizing, it is already echoing between us
Sometimes intense, sometimes sad
It echoes distantly
This gentle song changes the world

Look, the person who is important to you
Is right beside you
I just want to reach only you
This echoing love song
Listen, Listen, Listen to this echoing love song

You noticed that even the dark street
We walk on is lit up by the moon every night
Not letting go of the hand I grasped
The feelings are strong, I promise forever
In the depths of forever, I’ll surely say
These same words with my feeling unchanged
But it’s still not enough and turns into tears
It turns into joy, I can’t put into words
Just embracing, just embracing

Look, the person who is important to you
Is right beside you
I just want to reach only you
This echoing love song
Listen, Listen, Listen to this echoing love song

If it’s a dream, don’t wake up
If it’s a dream, don’t wake up
The time I spent with you
Will turn into everlasting stars

2009-12-22T21:32:00.002+08:00

I wanna go .....But .... nevermind? I was never meant to be. Never will.

Argh 3 days more o xmas and i havent buy present for people....Should I buy? Never celebrated xmas in this 15 years before. =\ Not quite a bit different. Well, now is hope everything goes well for that crappy omnia 2 my father had, and change it to an iphone. Then I can use 2 phone ;D

??? : " Jennifer , get everyone in the mansion to assemble at the main hall. I have an announcement to make. "

Jennifier : " Yes , My Lord. "

??? : " Raphael , get everything prepared for The Last Dance. "

Raphael : " Yes , My Lord. "

2009-12-18T20:36:00.003+08:00

I am tired.....Sir camp over lerh.... I'm once again brought back to this boring world. This black and white world. I simply hate it......Colors..... How long has it been since I see the colored world..... haiz....

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On the nights I can’t sleep,
I sigh alone.
How is everyone?
I feel lonely.

I guess it’s not like myself.
So stop laughing;
I just don’t know
My true self.

I didn’t want to be hurt,
So I was running away.
Then, even the light
Doesn’t shine for me.

I didn’t want to know my future,
Sadness,
I love it, but I feel like crying.
I love it, so I feel like crying.

Today, I tried
Eating an orange,
But again, it was so sour I cried.
It's unlike me to leave any behind
So I ate it all. I love it…
I feel like crying… I love it…
I love it…
I love it… It’s sour…
I feel like crying… I love you.

2009-12-10T20:59:00.001+08:00

I guess this blog is kinda empty....Kinda good for me to vent everything here and the other blog..... I dont know what to write here...... -goes to the other blog....-

2009-12-09T17:40:00.002+08:00

I guess.....things aren't the things I know anymore.... I.... guess I am would be lying if I said I'm ok......I guess I've been running away from reality for too long.....Things that don't change go extinct,I guess I'm soon dying.I wanna live in the past,I've been neglecting about the present...

"A brat who is afraid to be hurt isn't qualified to love someone."

Can this be true?I guess so.....

All sound has died out, and the cold, dark night fills the room. Unable to get to sleep, holding on to the covers. Suddenly, that's when it strikes, as if your chest is being squeezed and wanted to cry. A painful and uneasy feeling. From the depths of the heart, a thing called "loneliness" comes......I soon came to the point where I didn't know whether my smiling face was a lie or not.

To hate her means to hate all those memories.I will never hate it....I will cherish it....There are times when there's a great pleasure waiting at the end of laments, pains, and near-death experiences,I wish that time will come soon.....Sometimes it gets annoying when no one understands you but....As long as there's at least one person who understands me, I'll be okay.

I will fulfill my promise even if i am nothing but an empty container...

2009-12-08T18:42:00.002+08:00

)': Serious depression? Why did you say you ruin my life? When you didn't. In truth is you help me get back to who I am. You helped.....Why did you say you ruin it? )':

In the blue, blue sky, I turn on the moon's light
Sweetly, faintly heavy captured by things like that

Without knowing I'm alone underneath this moonlight
I called out only your name
I've been searching for the future forever
Inside this light...

I've got a feeling that fragile things are being moved far off
By the power of always, always believing you'll be near me

Without knowing I'm alone underneath this moonlight
I called out only your name
I believed in quiet affection
Inside this light...

There's never a time when I don't think about you
On nights where it's like I can't catch hold of anything
every single day I don't think about it
May my hesitating heart reach you

Call out my name underneath this moonlight
I promise I'll go see you, no matter where
To your side

Without blinking once in this moonlight
You quietly gazed at me
I've been searching for the future with you
Inside this light...

2009-12-06T14:58:00.002+08:00

Rewatching D. Gray-man , Sad to say ....Having fever again.I knew I wasn't feeling good yesterday. Well....Teared at ep 5 of D. Gray-man. A promise till the end.

I shall continue to watch.........At least..It keeps my mind off things......I feel like dying now.......

2009-12-01T18:30:00.002+08:00

For everything you desire, you have to pay an equal price in return. You can’t get more nor give more. Can’t be more or less. Must be in balance. Or else, there’ll be mishaps.

I am bored.....This few days is really bored till nothing to blog about..... Catch up to date for xxxholic ^^ It's a very recommended manga,downloaded Final Fantasy Advent Children Complete. The blue ray edition =\ one word to describe , EPIC. I swear its damn nice. okok.... main point.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELANIE!!!!!

Well, your birthday your wish. But take not of this phrase.

Every wish you make, you have to pay the equal amount! There are no such good things.

=] Take note ^^

ok,done blogging :P Till next time.

2009-11-28T21:25:00.002+08:00

I 've been neglecting my blogging =\ Shall blog today. =] I still can't believe I made friends from afa. But I did. FINALLY can think of someone to cosplay as. But sadly singapore doesn't have the costume. So no cosplay for the time being :D I can skip EOY cosplaying part >< But still will be taking vids of SJAS.

I've been manga-ing this few weeks. So bored :O Something happen ..... Blog next time ^^

2009-11-23T21:44:00.003+08:00

Spend WAY too much this holiday. AFA 09 EPIC!!!! Saving money for AFA '10 WOO~ KANAME FTW

Fack...Their autograph session so short....... I want kaname Autograph D:
ok. I lazy to upload afa 09 pics. But uploaded the cosplayer vids on FB.

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=180943724393
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=180943249393

So long never blog.Must check on SOMEONE blog :D

2009-11-09T21:00:00.001+08:00