Every New Semester:

After First Week:


After Second Week:

Before the Mid-Term Test:

During the Mid-Term Test:

After the Mid-Term Test:

Before the Final Exams:


Once Get to Know the Final Exam Schedule:

7 Days Before the Final Exam:

6 Days Before the Final Exam:

5 Days Before the Final Exam:

4 Days Before the Final Exam:


3 Days Before the Final Exam:

2 Days Before the Final Exam:

1 Day Before the Final Exam:

The Night Before the Final Exam:


1 Hour Before the Final Exam:


During the Final Exam:

Once Walk Out From the Examination Hall:


After the Final Exam, During the Holiday:

This is the last time I'm gonna post here . I'm gonna leave everything here , in this blog will be my memories for the past 3 years. The good times.The bad times. Every small things that I blogged about in the past 3 years. I'm gonna keep it here.

Starting afresh. It's like a story, when it reach the end. There is always a new chapter unfold. Here. 8 pm marks it all.... As for new blog... I will tell those who I think they're worth knowing it.

Back here. Same place. thinking now. It's been here for 3 years. It's a miracle I didn't deleted my blog. Alot of things are rushing into my mind... I don't know where to start... I have been thinking alot... Really alot. I've been studying. but not the subjects in school. Yet I wasted time in japanese folk lore and myths. Japan.... A place where ghost and spirits and totally different in other parts of the world.

Shouldn't say much into details. Tomorrow.... Is gonna be the same? This holiday I've been spending my best friend. My laptop. I never leave his side even once this holiday ...... Sigh..... You have put emotions and your needs behind.... You have move on.... I and still standing here, looking at the past. Wishing for things to be the same. Yet. Life is cruel. They won't let things go your way. I'm alone. Always. I guess this is the way it will always be. No one knows my pain. Will.... maybe if s/he is me for a day... I always wait for things to happen. Instead of making it happen. I'm just lazy. My future is pure darkness. I can never get nothing good out of that....

I guess.... I am too free? Today should be cycling but clive is busy. So canceled. Sigh... This holiday is wasted without you. Everyday is empty? 12 hours on laptop. Trying to be as happy as I can be . Though it's meaningless. First 2 weeks is wasted in school. This week is coming to it's end soon. Next week is exam. My life is in pieces. I'm so weak. After getting my ring. I don't punch and my knuckle got soft... I want to be stronger. Everything I said . I don't even know myself anymore.... Ahh.....FML.

Annual camp is kinda ok... ? My activity plan so good still... Nobody can finish it. Not enough time... Sigh. The only fun part is only the campfire. I guess... The 4 days... Has been fattening. Everyday western food. x.x and a sushi buffet coming up :/ Getting fat already X.X

When the feeling really fucked you up... What will you do? I decided to truth on myself... but why do things like this still happen? Some may call me weak and stuff, call me what you want. I don't care.

The feeling is gripping me like a fly in a spiders web, threatening me... Every single movement is energy draining.... If I can just.... Grow up. Mature more. Maybe that's when miracles can happen.

Knowing the truth yet denying everything... Even thought it's futile... even though it's fxcking useless... I lie to myself to make the world seem a little brighter even for a second longer...

It all I ever wanted... I don't need money or stuff...It's just someone whom i can be with. But I guess the simpliest things are live hardest thing to find... FML . I wish i could just fade away...

I give you my heart...
Mind, body and soul,
I give you my love ...
For you make me whole.
I give you this promise....
The promise to try,
I give you each breath..
And the tears I cry.
I give you my past...
My future and now,
I give you my thoughts...
My hope and this vow.
To give you my voice,...
And the music I sing,
I give you forever,...
I give you this ring.
I give you my world,...
All the pain and strife,
I give you my hand..
Learn to share my life.
I give you this kiss...
And these words I say,
"I'll cherish you always..
As of this day."
I give you my faith...
That these words are true,
For today, I swear,....
To spend my life with you.